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Melancholy, according to The Free Online Dictionary, is defined as "1. Sadness or depression of the spirits; gloom, 2. Pensive reflection or contemplation."
Yeah, I'm all that today. Not that I have any real reasons to be sad, but there have been some things that have been going on that have me doing a great deal of reflection and contemplation.
First, the spell checker function in the text field I am using right at this very instant doesn't work. Yeah, little things could be driving me crazy right now. I don’t want them to, but they kind of are. I’ll just finish this with a word processor program that will spell check as I go. Whoo hoo, one problem solved!
Second, I didn’t sleep well last night, so that is bothering me some.
Third, I have been watching Blackbeard and Destroyer’s YouTube video of their PCT hike last year, and so very much wish I could throw off the bonds of what is expected of me and just go live in nature, as free as the birds. This feeling has nothing to do with any feelings I have towards my wife or family, it just feels like a constant tugging towards getting away from what the rest of the world seems to believe I have to do for it.
I made a campfire in my backyard the other night. I sat there and watched the flames and smelled the smoke, feeding the fire with carefully stacked sticks from downed wood until I had a hot bed of coals made up and a hot fast fire burning. The smoke from the cooler slow fire disappeared and the coals glowed a bright orange as the energy was released from the wood and changed into heat, ash, and moisture. My spirit longed for the freedom of wild and wilderness, to be thinner, in better shape, and to above all feel totally FREE.
I think that doing something like hiking the PCT is enough to make someone feel totally free for very long. There is always the thought of having to reintegrate with society, which means the job, the family and friends, the things you like or don’t like, and how to integrate all of the “normal” trappings back into yourself. The trail seems easy compared to daily life of work, family, meals, sleep, over and over.
I am feeling better now that I have got some of this out. I suppose that the feeling of "Me against the world" is really more "Me against me!"
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